Oct 2017
To the boys I have kissed
1- I remember kissing you like it was yesterday. We were watching a movie in a mostly empty theater and you held my hand like you were holding all your hopes and dreams. We exchanged nervous glances through the entire movie and finally we both looked at each other and time stopped. I placed my hand on your cheek and I leaned in, yes, ME. The girl. I made the first move. And that was that. Our first kiss. It would be the first of many over a two year period where we would fall in and out of love.
2- Our first kiss was outside of my house.m after a long day spent with my family. I walked you to your car and we talked while leaning up against your passenger side door. You were holding both of my hands, and I said something funny and you smiled. The next thing I knew you were leaning down (You were 6'4. Jesus.) and you brushed my hair out of my face, and you pressed your lips against mine. It was weird to say the least. You were my second kiss and I didn't know how to feel about it. Your lips were very soft and after a few seconds of kissing me, your tongue was in my mouth. It was our first kiss for Christ sakes. But with those same lips and that same tongue you would cheat on me. And thank GOD you cheated on me.
3- This time I was someone's first kiss, and to say it was memorable would be an understatement. We drove to the water tower so we could go take a walk. As we got in front of the tower, I stood on this little platform so I could see the sunset better, you stood next to me, holding my hand. And I turn my head towards you and you smiled and kissed my cheek. And you kissed my cheek and made your way to my lips where we experienced our first, and most awkward kiss. It was like my lips didn't fit right with his and I remembered he had never kissed anyone before. But I taught him how to kiss as time went on. He was so determined to be good at it. If only he was that determined when it came to loving me.
4- You were the best kiss. By far. No contest needed.
It was after talent show and we sat in your car and talked for hours about nothing and everything. You held my hand and we laughed and smiled, I felt like I was drunk-or high- or something, I don't know. At one point we were doing this thing where we would point at different things around us. And I pointed at something behind us and we looked with our faces inches apart, and as I turned to face you, you kissed me. You. Kissed. Me. My best friend in the whole wide world. The boy I had been thinking about non-stop for the past few weeks. You kissed me and I swooned in your arms. You cupped my cheek like it was something precious and I held onto your shirt for dear life. After we broke apart, our foreheads pressed together, we smiled ridiculous smiles. I never wanted to get out of that car.
5- I never should have kissed you, all you did was use me.
6- I never should have kissed you, you were just lonely.
7- I never should have kissed you, you were still in love with her.
8- I should never have kissed you, you just wanted the attention.
I kissed people that I regret kissing. Their hands were too rough and their lips were too forceful or too soft and I can't go back and undo any of it. But if there is anything I have learned from kissing all of these people is that I should only kiss boys who hold my hand first
1- I remember kissing you like it was yesterday. We were watching a movie in a mostly empty theater and you held my hand like you were holding all your hopes and dreams. We exchanged nervous glances through the entire movie and finally we both looked at each other and time stopped. I placed my hand on your cheek and I leaned in, yes, ME. The girl. I made the first move. And that was that. Our first kiss. It would be the first of many over a two year period where we would fall in and out of love.
2- Our first kiss was outside of my house.m after a long day spent with my family. I walked you to your car and we talked while leaning up against your passenger side door. You were holding both of my hands, and I said something funny and you smiled. The next thing I knew you were leaning down (You were 6'4. Jesus.) and you brushed my hair out of my face, and you pressed your lips against mine. It was weird to say the least. You were my second kiss and I didn't know how to feel about it. Your lips were very soft and after a few seconds of kissing me, your tongue was in my mouth. It was our first kiss for Christ sakes. But with those same lips and that same tongue you would cheat on me. And thank GOD you cheated on me.
3- This time I was someone's first kiss, and to say it was memorable would be an understatement. We drove to the water tower so we could go take a walk. As we got in front of the tower, I stood on this little platform so I could see the sunset better, you stood next to me, holding my hand. And I turn my head towards you and you smiled and kissed my cheek. And you kissed my cheek and made your way to my lips where we experienced our first, and most awkward kiss. It was like my lips didn't fit right with his and I remembered he had never kissed anyone before. But I taught him how to kiss as time went on. He was so determined to be good at it. If only he was that determined when it came to loving me.
4- You were the best kiss. By far. No contest needed.
It was after talent show and we sat in your car and talked for hours about nothing and everything. You held my hand and we laughed and smiled, I felt like I was drunk-or high- or something, I don't know. At one point we were doing this thing where we would point at different things around us. And I pointed at something behind us and we looked with our faces inches apart, and as I turned to face you, you kissed me. You. Kissed. Me. My best friend in the whole wide world. The boy I had been thinking about non-stop for the past few weeks. You kissed me and I swooned in your arms. You cupped my cheek like it was something precious and I held onto your shirt for dear life. After we broke apart, our foreheads pressed together, we smiled ridiculous smiles. I never wanted to get out of that car.
5- I never should have kissed you, all you did was use me.
6- I never should have kissed you, you were just lonely.
7- I never should have kissed you, you were still in love with her.
8- I should never have kissed you, you just wanted the attention.
I kissed people that I regret kissing. Their hands were too rough and their lips were too forceful or too soft and I can't go back and undo any of it. But if there is anything I have learned from kissing all of these people is that I should only kiss boys who hold my hand first
