I wish I could save myself from myself
by Ahmad ***
Sometimes I wish I could help me from myself
There are sometimes when I wish
I could go back and stop myself
From making those mistakes
That seemed so obvious after I have made them
Sometimes I wish
I could erase
All of the hurt I have ever caused others
The people and the friends that have come and gone
I wish that I could keep myself
From feeling hate towards others
I wish sometimes I could keep myself
From giving in to my urges
When I am feeling upset
When I am feeling low
And when I can even hear myself saying no
That I shouldn't
But I keep on anyway
I wish that I could help myself sometimes
To keep me from harming myself sometimes
But it seems like unfortunately
It just doesn't always work out that way
I end up hurting myself
And unfortunately sometimes I hurt others
But sometimes I think I just have to accept
That I am not perfect
And I am going to stray from where I feel I should be
And I am going to feel lost
And I am going to feel loss
And regret
And pain
Whether it be self inflicted or not
And that I just have to try and do my best
To try and become a better person
Than I was the last day