Walking down the pale blue corridor Framed doors line the sides, knowing what lies behind Each door has two buttons, one light, enter or exit
Old victorian furniture, flickering candle light seems to light the walls, the last door on the left open waiting my arrival
A lump forms in my throat, my eyes water uncontrollably, trembling as I gasp for a normal breath Family look and talk to me ,here nor do I see them
At first, I only dare to see the flowers on the gray casket my heart races The bangs on top of her forhead every hair in place Catholic cross, collar lace, her body out of context to her personality and soul for those living in the world of their make-believe
They made her into what they needed her to be to absolve them from any wrongdoing, her family never understood her They paid their final respects with hidden emotions of guilt and shame
I reminisced of a childhood adventure implicated concluded with a smile Strange what I chose to remember In the mist of my sorrow
Overwhelming bewilderment places left unseen ,words left unsaid Funerals are for the living not the dead through moments like these one finds inner strength Tribute to MOM
This was the first person in my life who died I was young and angry and it was very hard to deal with given the circumstances around her death