got locked out today came home from the grocery store and couldn’t get in wandered around knocking on a couple of doors looking for help no one answered never realized before that a house without people in it can be cold as stone an older couple down the street let me in and called a locksmith such gracious, neighborly neighbors
as I sat waiting on my peeling painted porch on a cool cloudy day memories burrowed up like a mole about how I wandered dreamlessly when young just wanting to survive thoughts of future shot down by relative poverty and low self esteem perhaps it was just delusion once thinking that I could be anything I wanted to be
we memorize the ***** and chains we place on ourselves like once tethered elephants never straying from our post it took a long time to come into me it took a long time to come to like myself it took a long time to come to love myself but at times I still doubted feeling the pull of my elephant’s chain the tug of my tether while wasting away where I stood
finally got myself together and made plans it tickles me to think how I made God laugh