You are visiting OUR friends Only YOUR friends now They met each other through US And I met YOU through HIM they just adopted a baby boy named Finn and as you cradle babe I spend twenty minutes steaming a dress I'm going to shove into a suitcase and the bags under my eyes could hold enough dresses to last me the rest of summer Last week I taught myself how to stop from flinching at your ghost Swallow the lumps you shove down my throat wash it down with whiskey My therapist called me last night She said "it was out of protocol" "I don't want to be invasive because enough people in your life already are." Do I think I'll end up with a man? I don't know I don't feel anything anymore I turned myself into you thinking only with stagnant organs only breathing with logic only giving a **** when I feel like it Only grabbing and gutting only hunting and harboring my soul my vessel my streamline sailboat a river of loneliness man-made and full of fish to **** I am a salmon's skeleton