Wedding bells are ringing
wedding bells are ringing
As I turn around I see the man I'm marring
Walking down to the alter I see my sister and in her hands my nephew shes caring
please sit the pastor states as the man slowly slips my vial away from my face
then suddenly like a shadow casting down at him he vanishes in place
I turn to look at my friends and family and they slowly seem to fade
I start to feel the world cave
and I wake and I start to hyperventilate
something just didn't feel right
I couldn't catch anything I felt like I was late
as I stare at the calendar the year 2013
It was the end of a chapter at age 19
heart aches and sad sorrows
loving days and a painful tomorrows
The man I was going to marry the man I once loved
called me Nov.2013 to tell me he was done
That was the day my heart turned to ice
I took my chances in life like I was rolling the dice
I tried and tried to get him off my mind
but my mind and my body remembered just fine
the smell of him and the memories tumbling like dominoes
one after the other over and over
I found someone who became my late night lover
He was one call away, he was my distraction
Heartless I was, it wasn't lust nor was it love, it was just for my satisfaction
Even then his name slipped out here and there
losing the memories of him was my fear
Then the pain faded and I was healed
I ended it with my lover and suddenly the world became real
I was back and I felt new
To finally get rid of you who knew
that I could finally walk to the next chapter
with you no longer taunting my laughter
I could breath again, I no longer feel myself gasping for air
my clouded judement began to see clear
that you were just a sweet grenade in my innocent days
but you my dear was the start of my new ways
wedding bells are fading
wedding bells are fading