Remember all those years ago?
They warned us that all that time together wasn't good-
Was not healthy- but its not like we were on a diet
We drank in the warmth of each others company
And feasted on delightful conversation

Now, when you leave I know why we were warned
I put the weakest peaces of myself in you, hoping that
Maybe when you leave, I would only be stronger
All I did was tear myself apart

When you go my mind beings to decompose
You were all that kept it alive
My monsters creep out form the closet
Like every day is Halloween, but they're not after candy-
They're after me

My heart breaks down
I can feel the pieces fall into my gut
Those soft eyes kept it pumping
The lack of you is dangerous
All of me falls apat

Constantly and only when you're gone

I know why they said it wasn't healthy for us
Because you replaced all my other addictions
I cry and beat my head against the wall because I know
Nothing I could smoke would **** the lingering pain like you
Without you, I'm just a shell waiting to be filled again
....with anything

Which is why I do what I do-
When the distance is unbearable
Someone else offers to fill me with light
Sometimes I think it might be love
It never is, and I don't think it ever could have been
Love is the chemical my brain produces when my heart starts beating
Only ever reanimated and put back together by your gaze

Letting you walk away is a dangerous game
Time is the unbearable theashold
How long is too long before I become
More than just empty...too empty
Or too broken

It all sounds bad, I know, but that is not the case
I learned something while being entertained by others
You are all I ever need
I was emptied faster with them- they were not you
This distance is killing me, however, that is not a problem
Because you alone can bring me back to life



...never forget though, it still rains every moment you're gone