an act of ambition,
am i even doing this for me
was it ever for my
own sake?
foundation shakes
the lines draw loose
uneven
i've been lost from day one
and this road
is fractured
my tires are manipulated
to believe
in their own strength
and push
and pull
and work
and sleep
the darker hours
relax me, remind me
where i belong
where i'm allowed to breathe
the shades don't rise
inside this frame
empty
becoming a fraction
of my being.
was that the world
outside my window?
it's been painted over
suppressing the view
i had grown to love
pretending this painting
is the most
beautiful
creation i've ever seen.