If I pretend The pain does end So I try to forget Tell myself what we were was a regret I rebuilt my walls Trying to ignore my greatest falls The aching will come And it makes me easy and lay with **** I'm no ***** But my heart is in war And I'm on edge Slowly trying to pull myself from the ledge Whenever memories come back It's as though strength is what I lack I'm fighting these battles alone I'm determined to escape the unknown The images of what was will fade And by then my heart would've strayed.