they see me walk into the supermarket
with a military style precision,
usually 15 minutes to eleven p.m.
just before the market closes,
   and i'm a very predictable customer,
a litre of ***, a 2 litre bottle of
pepsi max...
     i have not idea that pepsi wins
the battle with diet coke...
   and the last time i drank some normal
pepsi (loaded with sugar) i was like...
this tastes funny...
  one cashier calls me mathias,
   another calls me babe -
   this military style precision has been going
on for? well, probably more than a year,
day in, day out, sunshine or rain.
    just yesterday i remembered something
from my youth...
    vimto squash...
   i can't remember the last time i drank it...
so i thought to myself: come on,
revive the taste buds...
     so i did, bought a 2 litre bottle of it...
but while in the check-out
  the cashier that calls me babe
   made the remark: well, that's different...
unusual for you...
   so i told her:
        see, i remember the taste being so ****
unique when i drank it as a child:
god, i still remember the school dinners
  at st. augustine's school in barkingside -
most notably? chocolate cake, drizzled with
custard;
  and vimto... something, almost ghostly
now, because the taste for the squash has
changed so much...
    but that's not what i'm aiming at:
         i clearly respect the theological aspect of
conversation, notably?
early early jordan peterson (circa 2008) -
i just find atheism too arrogant,
    an arrogance that french-kisses out-right
condescending -
  it makes religion ridiculous:
    by attacking it with the only weapon at its
disposal: ridicule.
             however, i find the story
of the kiss of judas very comical...
       so the jewish authorities didn't recognise
jesus, after the last supper?
    the most popular person in the region,
drawing crowds of a great number,
  and then suddenly, what? so unrecognisable
that it required a kiss of betrayal to identify him?
seems kinda sketchy...
        what did he do, cut of his long hair
and have a shave?
then again, i'm starting to consider the follow
twist in the story...
   jesus the nazir - nazir? a jewish cult -
where their members grew their hair long,
   and abstained from drinking wine...
maybe the nazarites became infuriated,
  rather than the biblical account that the man
had beef with the pharisees, or the sadducees?
maybe the real beef came from the nazirs?
really... what's so ****** iconic about
judas "identifying" jesus to the authorities
by kissing him?
       i'm pretty **** sure the locals,
esp. the authorities, would have been able
to identify the man without this gesture...
   like i said:
(a) did he have a shave and cut his long hair
     in a roman style?
and
(b) i think the nazirs had a bigger problem with
jesus, than either the pharisees or the sadducees...
given that he imitated some of
their practices, but abused the vino.