I'm waiting
In the indigo darkness
To find myself
The way I used to be
How I look in the photos without the filters
The smile that came so naturally
Forget the hair and nails
The makeup on fleek
Even my posture was strong
My balance sturdy
Body a structure
Of youth and innocence
A navigation system
Of wonder and enlightenment
I was the antidote
The Messiah
Of all my problems
Once a beacon of light
Now an abandoned Lighthouse
My mind a labyrinth