I’m in love with him.
But he’ll never see it.
He doesn’t know my heart breaks when he smiles.
That slice of joy could never belong to me.
Anyone he loves, I nod my head and approve… they could be the nicest person, but I can only imagine me and him. I try to push the thought away and be happy for them.
Inside, I want to turn his head toward mine.
But it would only ruin what we share. The indescribable love between two good friends.
I scold myself for being selfish.
Wanting to ruin the connection and attach a bigger link.
I hide behind the fantasy that it could work.
I wear a mask that conceals my wishes.
When I place it over my face, my heart is crushed.
But I brush it off, for I never should have let myself fall… with no one coming to catch me.