A phoenix rising with smouldering wings
again I drag myself up even though it stings
surrounded by the ash of my filthy lies
finally, finally, pushing away all I ever despised

life broke me down, the shadow I tried to appease
tearing my heart out and falling to my knees -

what's the point in living when you wish you were never born
why try to fan away the flames with a flag that's torn

I wear a different face everyday like a new fashion
I've learnt to pretend and forge false passion
masquerading so much I no longer know who I am
a sad delinquent wreck I'd love to say I'm more than

but the days pass slower, tainted by grey
I fear death but yet I don't want to stay
sickened by the festering tumour of mundanity
I turn to the twisted romance of my insanity

but I have no true friends
merely another being with loose ends

oh I'm so tired, it just drains

the loneliness is calm but it pains

I razored stiletto in my side

alas I must push it to the back of my mind.


*For why do we fall?
To rise back up.