I come from a long line of women Who **** in stomachs And wear painfully large smiles Who punish themselves at dinner For eating lunch Voices like wisps of wind Silent that echo down generations Ever shrinking they collect leaves and dirt In matted hair from dragging themselves low To make men feel taller on our family tree
That’s why when I met you I was scared to take up too much space I tried to concave and let you grow from the hallowed ground Of my hungry core But you didn’t mind that I filled a room
I was terrified to show you the horded opinions and dreams I had stored in my back closet ( I had always meant to throw them out when I fell in love to make room for yours) But you just asked to see them Now they occupy our walls like works of art
When I shrink As is habit You offer a ladle like a reminder That the bigger I get The stronger I get The wiser Healthier The more I grow The more we flourish You say The taller I stand The more of me you can see “and baby I love this view” You chuckle in the crook of my neck
I hope one day my daughters will smile and say I come from a line of strong willed women that aren’t afraid to own their space And the pictures on their tree will start with you and me