Why can’t I stop loving you like I do?

Waking up at midnight, staring out,

Wondering what on God’s green earth you are doing.

I could just as easily approach your angelic boundary,

But it will hurt me.

I must play that game of keep away,

Keeping away love, keeping away emotions, keeping away myself,

So I do not hurt myself using you.

So just know,

I cant speak, I can’t think, I can’t feel

Without you.

It is my choice for that.

I enforce that hurt to make myself stronger,

To make myself better, to make myself for you.

Perhaps in the future.

But more than likely, you’ll refuse me again.

Ignore me, throw me away like garbage.

And I’ll be stuck waking in the middle of the night,

Playing that game of keep away one more time.