I know its been so hard.

Its been hard for me too
For all of us
I can't think too deeply on it all
Or I disappear completely.

Remember when I was a child
And I would write and draw
All through everything
My teachers would correct my stories
The stories were so honest
I remember
Do you?

Gregory Avenue
Repeat old family videos
I don't ever really let the pain hit me much
For it makes me question everything.

I always noticed
I always knew
Mama you gripped me tight
Whispering to my mind
To focus on securing a man
I wonder why now?

A woman with 3 older brothers
Perhaps its all you ever really knew.

I did some drugs last night
Dressed in all white
The air above me electric
We hum into the well
Of the Chicago skyline sound
And I get up to get back in.

Do you long for each other?
Mama always use to say Papa never showed
Any real public affection
Gritting her mouth, her teeth
In that way
My brothers and I got to know too well.

Do you remember when
I taught Clayton's dog to swim?
Or kissed a childhood friend
Cried in my father's arms
When my high school sweetheart
Went away to college
He's married now
And his birthday
August 4th
(I still remember)
Was just two days ago.

Those sweet hard moments
Where I wore too much eyeliner
And cried because you made me take a shower
Or shouted at the top of my lungs
Where do I belong?

Do you remember?
I do.