some people claim, i went mad, aged 21,
i can even attest some "scrutiny"
to this statement,
    i was about to embark on a 2nd semester
of studying history at the s.s.e.e.s.
school of u.c.l. -
        after finishing chemistry at edinburgh,
i thought: it'd be nice to catch-up on
history that i missed, had i lived in poland...
evidently not to be...
    i "dropped" out... or as some would
claim went "mad"...
                         funny thing about "madness"
it never sharpens your mind...
it never makes you lucid...
        this though? a study of gematria -
but of a different sort...
           not the istambul east meets west
type of gematria...
         random as hell the following conclusion
(i've almost gone through
70cl of the wilf turkey bourbon), so...

    3 9 4 6 7 1 2 5 8
    8 1 6 3 5 2 7 4 9
    2 7 5 8 4 9 1 6 3
    9 4 2 7 3 5 8 1 6
    6 8 7 1 9 4 3 2 5
    1 5 3 2 8 6 9 ו‎ ה‎
    4 2 9 5 1 8 6 ∞ ח‎
    7 6 8 4 2 3 5 9 1
    5 3 1 9 6 7 4 י‎ 2

n.b. apologies for the profanity of
giving the tetragrammaton a profane
form...
    i just couldn't find ה‎ with an acute
variation to distinguish it...
   given that in the puzzle
                    י‎ (3), ה‎ (4), ו‎ (7), ח‎ (7)
           given the hebrews already
provide hidden vowels,
   as the latins provide diacritical markings,
already with the confusing א‎ (alef) &
   ע‎ (ayin) - the gay adams of eden,
well... if you apply the prefix / suffix rule
of cutting off a name for a letter
   and for a basic sound in dentistry...
     a- (-yin)      &   a- (-lef) -
        gay adams...
                          might as well then
add the third A in the game: kametz...
       huh?! see... it's semitic, no wonder it's
confusing... let's leave it at the hebrew level,
i have no time to read arabic mysticism...
but like i said... given the hidden vowels,
  and the two already present vowels that
act as "consonants"...
so if א‎ ≠ a, does that that mean א‎ = ל‎
  (alef equals lamed) or does it mean
                     א‎ = "כ‎", i.e. fak?
    the same goes with ayin...
                 otherwise the whoe alpha
beta gamma can **** itself if it's not
                                             simple a, b, g;
                            *******! give the secret up!
again, i apologise for the profanity,
but i had to write the tetragrammaton
as   ח‎ו‎ה‎י‎                (namely the second h'eh
had to become a h'et) why?
   given the hiding of vowels, and the notion
that hebrew has no concept of diacritical
markings... and given the sudoku puzzle...
the puzzle, just so arranged itself
   that ו‎ = ה‎ = 7... so i had to distinguish
somehow...
                       how does that name evolve
for you, rabbi schlomo?
                                             yah-wait?
yah? isn't that wisdom in the tree?
      oh... so we're talking about allowing this
sort of writing to mature?
                        that it doesn't belong for
     my contemporary audience? i'm sure it does...
**** me... just give me the abstract
tetragrammaton of the acronym n.e.w.s.
  or the "finger": †.