you don't know me
did you used to?
oh
oh my god why aren't i sure?
i'm not sure i'm not i'm not i'm
not oh god oh god
who are you?

stick with me here i'm just
i'm trying to remember the talks we had in my driveway
the texts you sent me from airports that made my heart glow
should i list these things to help myself?
your eyes, my hair
funny looks when you'd stare
at me after saying something dumb
before we started laughing
and i thought how good we were together
i thought how good we were like that
i'm trying i am i am
but loneliness has skimmed the dreaminess from the top of my head
and left me instead
with a vision so broad i can't find the tunnel to you
and now my hands won't stop shaking
and my breath feels all floaty
as if even as i breathe slowly
nothing's happening at all
i don't remember who you are

i miss you but i don't
i miss who you were
and i know about change and time and hearts
i know that sometimes people grow apart
i'm not a child
but i was
such a short time ago
and so were you
so where's the damage at?

i'm scared, love
did i know you then?
do you know me now?
and was the person i am now
hidden inside the child i was?
and if so, did you only know the mask i wore
or did i let you see my face?
please help, i guess i didn't realize
how terribly alone we really are