You’re right there. Why can’t I reach out to touch you? Hold me, and say it’s okay… But when I blink, you ripple. You’re really miles away
I’m losing my mind. All I can do is keep quiet and smile… When I talk to you I feel safe, I can relax for a while…
As soon as you leave, it sets in again. All I ever was, was an empty tin. I was once filled with joy and hope. Never questioning the struggles of holding my head high and learning to cope…
My fears, and thoughts are reaching in all directions. I shout for them to leave me be. They have no business latching onto me.
But what can I do? What can I say? It’s not like this would make sense to you anyway…
Because I am my own destroyer... My own butcher... My own killer…
You yell “Don’t give up! You can do this!” But I have already given in. My mind's made up. That’s where this all started, That’s where it’ll end. If I convince myself I’ll be okay for a little while, I’m only playing pretend.
We’ll see where this ends...
But when I see your smile this whole cycle starts over again. I'm doing this for you, You're the reason I don't stop fighting, the reason I make amends, So real, this could never be pretend.
You're there through thick and thin. I could never thank you enough,