You don't need to bother her.
Yes, maybe you feel like you'll break down, you're anxious, you don't feel alone, you're waiting for the hallucinations to start playing their games.again.
Just breathe, because you'll be fine.
Yes, you want to run to her, you want to say, "I'm not okay, and I need you right now." But knowing that'll only bother her you decide against it.
You just close your eyes and try to go back to sleep with a lump in your throat and a prayer for tomorrow, and you think of her and ignore the fearful tears that fall down your cheeks.
You know she'd care, but you fear she wouldn't and you would only bother her, despite her words.
And you sleep alone, uncomfortable, unsettled.