I can't believe I let someone get to me
Someone I helped
And did everything I could
For so long
When I couldn't.
When I shouldn't have.
But I needed to help
Because I saw myself in her
I saw the same choices
I saw the same heart.
But I couldn't help
And I'm now of no use
And my safe place is now
Somewhere riddled with whispers
With remarks
Somewhere I was edged out
Set aside
Watching
I can't believe I let someone in
And tried my very best
To be turned on
Like a snake coiled to strike
That I only ever saw the most beautiful scales on
Never noticing
The potential to turn
The potential to tear down
Everything I built up
Everything I pulled her up to
I shared with
Everything I did
To get struck
Emotionally torn down

I can't believe I ever tried
I never could be so callous
So harsh
As I always do
Only speaking good, only seeing good
Only ever trying
So
Very
Hard
To help.