everyone has a set destination
on the gps in their future mind
and im stuck inside the conversation
between knowing if ill stay alive

im not suicidal
well sometimes i am
the majority of my life has been set in stone
thinking about time again and again

sometimes i feel nothing
even when i hurt
sometimes i feel everything
and i feel much worse

i wonder if im living
or dying
or in between

and sometimes im just plain old okay
with the gray
and the death
and the me