I used to get butterflies when we kissed,
I used to yearn for your touch,
I used to feel a hot flame run through my body all the way to my toes whenever you touched me.
I used to look at you and think my heart might explode,
I used to think the way that you picked at your scabby hands was ****,
I used to put you before everything,
I used to think that you were worth it.

I used to think I was disgusting,
I used to think I was a *****, slimy eel.
I used to hate everything about myself.
I used to think that I wasn't good enough.

I used to believe my heart was truly breaking when you did what you did,
I used to believe you loved me,
I used to believe my heart was worth breaking over you.

I used to believe the lies you spat my way,
I used to believe you when you told me beautiful things that weren't meant for people like me,
I used to believe that we could work.
-I believe that we could've worked, it's just the wrong time,
Maybe later on in life,
Or maybe in a different life altogether we'll be together,
Until then I'm not holding hope for the future,
There's no need to when you've accepted the inevitable.