I wish to hide behind the photographs on my wall To go back to the past and wear the smile I once wore To hide behind the laughter of my friends To seek new adventures with fraudulent enthusiasm
I wish to hide underneath my bed Where I was told monsters emerged But only musty socks lived there To find my imagination in the place where child me would go
Finding myself behind closed doors Muffled screams heard over my covered ears A pounding in my chest that could only be expressed by a sense of fear and anxiety Not knowing what would come next
Blink once and the tears begin to fall Blink twice and your palms moisten Blink thrice and you can only breathe in scattered rhythms
Do not remember the past Do not remember the past Do not remember the past Do not think about the chances you have to ruin the present Ruin the present Ruin my future
Your chest begins to tighten Everything is too loud but the screams you hear are the ones youβre yelling at yourself
Calm down Calm down Calm down
Irrationality consumes you You cannot think about your sanity Only think about the pressure on your chest Being crushed under piles of rocks that are your thoughts The feeling of being buried alive while still holding your head above the water
Rocking back and forth as if you were in a rocking chair Pulling at your arms as if they had dry glue on them Bang your head against the walls that keep closing in on you
Blink once and the tears begin to fall Blink twice and your palms moisten Blink thrice and you can only breathe in scattered rhythms
Youβre making rhymes out of your pain Clapping your hands to keep them from tearing your skin All the while hoping you have enough courage to drive your car into the river