Literally a perfect situation: approach the stupid guy. He's all alone and vulnerable and adorable but what? I just let my sorry excuse for confidence slide away into the back row like the awkward teen I am lurking, admiring from afar obsessing like a **** starved weasel with a pint of bacon fat until my worry muscles are broken and ripped and sore and bleeding and my brains must be bashed out with hammers to get rid of the suffering the stupid, stupid thoughts and self-reproach worth just measured by a stupid stupid boy's approval or lack there of of caring. How cute, my ignorance of importance my value on externals and stupid stupid desires that are never going to happen, and yes I am ranting like a little girl in a diary and yes I am putting it all out for any unfortunate reader and yes I have zero *****.