Jul 2017
Why do i feel as if my heart will soon break•
I feel the gut alerts run through my body like an earthquake•
How can i have so much love to give•
But be scared of the thought of love and to be able to live•
All because she destroyed my outlook on love•
I tried to pray and look to the most high above•
But even still in my chest i felt the pressure •
Noone in my life can give me a refresher•
I try to explain my emotions but just cant•
Going around going on inside me an emotional rant•
Imagine the feeling of drowning 10 ft underwater•
While slowly sinking farther and farther•
The way your chest tightens•
And you are so frightened •
Then you get your last glimpse of light•
So dim but in your eyes so bright•
While the darkness closes in around you•
You pray to god someone finds you•
But nobody comes•
While you feel your slow last heart beats beating like a drum•
Waiting for another love but your scared•
because what if they bring you to the ocean of emotions like someone who never cared•
You try to say you dont need this•
But this love thing you cannot dismiss•
Funny you want this when you dont want love yo destroy you like it did your family •
But towards this love thing how am I supposed to be•
My heart truly breaks everyday •
But you cannot see cause i got these stubborn feelings in the way•
Happy is was people think of me all the time •
I fake it so good everyday it should be a crime •
I sit here and pour my heart of through this pencil •
Cant speak these things they only come through this writing utensil•
Alone•
Soul on a pedestal heart should be on a throne•
Shes aching and crying•
Moaning and whining •
She feels for you but it scared to go on•
She wouldn't have a care in the world of the feelings were gone•
You always say the right things•
No wonder i never miss a call when it rings•
My heart grows sadder as feeling grow stronger•
I really can decide if this can go on any longer•
You with a girl•
And me with this hatred of the world•
Why did i even get myself attached •
Thinking about you day to day today myself becoming a latch•
I feel like a line•
But i know imma dime•
Just dont wanna be waisting my time....
I feel the gut alerts run through my body like an earthquake•
How can i have so much love to give•
But be scared of the thought of love and to be able to live•
All because she destroyed my outlook on love•
I tried to pray and look to the most high above•
But even still in my chest i felt the pressure •
Noone in my life can give me a refresher•
I try to explain my emotions but just cant•
Going around going on inside me an emotional rant•
Imagine the feeling of drowning 10 ft underwater•
While slowly sinking farther and farther•
The way your chest tightens•
And you are so frightened •
Then you get your last glimpse of light•
So dim but in your eyes so bright•
While the darkness closes in around you•
You pray to god someone finds you•
But nobody comes•
While you feel your slow last heart beats beating like a drum•
Waiting for another love but your scared•
because what if they bring you to the ocean of emotions like someone who never cared•
You try to say you dont need this•
But this love thing you cannot dismiss•
Funny you want this when you dont want love yo destroy you like it did your family •
But towards this love thing how am I supposed to be•
My heart truly breaks everyday •
But you cannot see cause i got these stubborn feelings in the way•
Happy is was people think of me all the time •
I fake it so good everyday it should be a crime •
I sit here and pour my heart of through this pencil •
Cant speak these things they only come through this writing utensil•
Alone•
Soul on a pedestal heart should be on a throne•
Shes aching and crying•
Moaning and whining •
She feels for you but it scared to go on•
She wouldn't have a care in the world of the feelings were gone•
You always say the right things•
No wonder i never miss a call when it rings•
My heart grows sadder as feeling grow stronger•
I really can decide if this can go on any longer•
You with a girl•
And me with this hatred of the world•
Why did i even get myself attached •
Thinking about you day to day today myself becoming a latch•
I feel like a line•
But i know imma dime•
Just dont wanna be waisting my time....
