I often long to write about you And what went down between us But I reassure myself with "It's just so over."
Remember the California trees And how you first loved to take pictures of me Taking pictures.
Sparkling lit up tree In Southern California I wore a v neck to **** a pack of men Slipping and simmering in blood Playing with volume Velocity.
A street was lit up So green I remember washing my face In the first place we stayed And like a montage of Washing Washing Rinsing
When we talk now It's to painful to go on So I often bring it to a halt Are you lonely?
My girls that have constant lovers I often have to remind myself That they cannot really fathom what this is like I had the person who was supposed to my person I had to leave that person.
And sometimes I hope and wonder When I feel down Surely they see that, they know that And endow me with a lot of respect Most women would never of left.
But it doesn't matter what most would of done Because I'm not most Never have been.
I don't know I don't know that I'm all that special And I'm not what I thought I'd be I guess In my pink bedroom Nothing but darkness My balanced scales breathing into the solitude At long last