the church bells sound out of tune today
as if a bad omen for things to come
my friends don't feel like my friends anymore
just acquaintances i see from time to time
and sure we may have been talking
drinking
and laughing last night
but no matter how many times you say you miss me
its just way too hard to believe
they have new jokes
ones that i do not know
the punchline is there
and they're all laughing in hysterics
but i stay silent because i do not understand

the uncertainty of life is terrifying
and i want out
so please don't leave me alone
because out is where i may end up