i can't relate... i can't relate! i can't relate!
i'm european but on these isles
i'm hardly the ethno-centric
bull's-******* worth of authenticity...
i can't relate!
  all i have to do is read the middle-class
newspapers reviewing books
on a saturday or a sunday,
  and i find myself "trapped" in a
colonial past,
      in the history of slavery,
in a p.c.s.d. (post-colonial-stress-disorder),
i really can't bring about
the luggage of the utility of a tongue
with all its ******* history...
i simply can't identify myself as
a user while at the same time the
instigator...
   it's an impossible asking to suggest
both can be accomplished,
even the two stated hopes are
"paradoxically" diametric...
jews? for some reason jews
can forget, and assimilate like
a genocide against them...
  jews breed genocide...
                sorry...
but i can't forget that the jews
are actually iraqis... after all,
the town of Ur, where abraham originated
from is found in modern day iraq...
fair enough, i'm citing the wrong
sources...
       we can play the hide & seek / babuska
game for as long as the yawn doesn't
give a wake to itself...
the anti-semitic sensitivity is also
going to run low on steam...
until something pushes it aside and
people will have to stop reminding
other people that the holocaust
was, but wasn't and never will be
the most important event in humanity's
history... sorry, but not really sorry,
the jews are like the english...
the jews always have their *******
holocaust genesis,
while the english always have their
******* darwinism genesis!
  bores the ******* *** i might have been
out of me!
            ugh!
           talk about the antidote
of eating maggots akin to fish!
both these ethnic groups are boring
living days out of me!
         we're living in times where it's
either the jews and the holocaust,
or the english and darwinism...
                 can i ask for a ******* trampoline?
                no, i can't relate...
even when i consecrate my awe on
the tetragrammaton, i find the jews
having exhausted the preferences of
      kabbalah upon the rude
   and barbarian practice of numerology:
regressive monotheism,
i.e. paganism...
         i'd scalp those ******* kippahs off
their heads so they might resemble
franciscan monks...
   at the same time i simply can't relate
to english history...
                  it's not an odd observation,
i can use the language,
                i can abuse the language,
i can buy my goods and pay the due taxes...
but when it comes to inheriting
the history behind the tongue?
             i can't do that...
                  but it's nice looking
at people who have
                a historogical guilt syndrome...
i simply can't inherit it,
  what with ultra-history that's
etymology... if not simply overt-,
   i can learn the functionability
of a language, but i can never acquire
an organic identity of the language,
i speak an inorganic english,
while the natives speak an organic english...
in the realm of physicality?
      one & the same;
personally? i've been robbed
    of learning of my own ethinicity,
of my own history, of my own myths...
   king arthur really isn't that much
of a worthy interest when it comes to
crafting a stable psyche that's necessarily
ethno-centric;
which is why it's good to attach oneself
to something jewish,
  something displaced...
something that is never to return home,
something that is beyond an ownership
of any material possession to be claimed
as statutory...
                    a sunset bringing the night,
a sunrise bringing the day...
but i have no home within the realm of
the two tongues i speak...
      i have only a home in having acquired
a non-religious judaism,
   for i think, rather than take the lazy route
of keeping mind of sabbatical restrictions,
that allow no reach into celestial abodes;
as in the secular mind,
   ****** liberation... of what was once religion...
to me, the truly liberated sexually,
are those disengaged from actual ***.