today I was outside holding my son and hummed into his neck a man resurrected to faint
-
childhood animals deeply unhurt
-
this machine can detect silence
this stick if stones are gay
~
[tenderness]
it is there in the way my father refolds a single grocery bag for a cyclops that never arrives
~
[having a disabled child]
means:
there is a tent being studied by dream.
missing more than snow the ashes of snow.
footwear. and checking our food for holes.
means keeping dry a diver’s eyelash. and leaving
to finish absence.
~
[jesus]
an unhurried ****** whose character development was orphaned by ghosts
~
[high-dive. dusk.]
as if any father could heal a cigarette or remove for a grey-eyed newborn the stitches from a dream
~
[mother praying for two]
tooth fairy gone to salt
shell of a bee in an empty lamb
~
[/ yyyy]
doll burns its tongue on a teacup breast
at your abuser’s costume party
~
[later meaning]
my eyes meet in a tunnel beneath the museum of things that belong. sister moons the moon. mother she buries the ironing board of a crucified dentist. childhood starts at the top. the painter of stomachs eats from a footprint. egghead shreds a pillow in the madhouse of snake.
~
[eremite]
the frog in the hood of my coat has I’m sure a later meaning.
my brother is on his back in a field he calls helicopter.
I know my father’s mouth by its embrace of doom’s unconnected dot. there are sounds
I can’t make. like that of a boy
squealing as he rubs a toy tank under a blanket for a god whose mother a face
could love.
~
[highs]
eardrum the airbag stomach of a lonely doll
brain a blue parachute
~
[handheld]
somewhere between satellites and baptisms
grief the daydreaming thumb
~
[days of bread]
the image crucified for its lack of focus.
the loud music over which you hear make your blood.
the weakest electric chair this side of moth.
father’s grip on a rolled-up magazine.
crow laundry.
an out-of-shape coat hanger. & (and)
the news that my nakedness has died.
~
[possessions]
i.
chew toy abandoned at the throne of old man scissorlegs
ii.
a claw from the lottery of hands
~
[promising]
the girl wearing a scuba mask is not on a skateboard. this, after all, is church. I see what you see- the writing suffer. I’ll wash, later, a pair of black socks from the minefields of the one we call birdbeak and you can be the puppet with a needle in its arm.
~
[last names]
he cracks the motel room door from inside and ****** from wasp to spider to spared cricket. he can smell the baby’s back as it begins to burn a hole in the pocket of a bag-headed hitchhiker. the earth is 42 years old. a car in the lot below moves over a body and stops. the woman in the car is ******* a tooth through a cigarette. whatever god put in her cake is almost gone.
~
[for Eric]
I’ve held dogs as they die. vet’s office, 1993. a bad dream is a nightmare and a good dream is nothing. is a dog’s rib. I get an idea, here and there. design the same bathtub.
~
[lost grass]
eat loudly, mouse, for still I have my baby blood. loudly else you become a fish. else I jaw ear
from the character actor’s god.
~
[clarion]
heaven is art and hell the artist. regret matters only to the creator of regret. brother hops around like a drugged rabbit. headcount is the nickname given by sisters to the outhouse built on a sandbox. an ambulance from dogcatcher’s dream puts the hurt on a flickering cornfield. our cellar is a mirror where thunder goes deaf.
~
[for daughter]
in a wordless dream I’m nowhere near anyone I can’t be. my dad’s mirror passes out.
~
[untitled]
snake is the best thing for snake.
I know you’re sad. like a yard, a vandal, a roof.
seeing the future takes time.
~
[laity]
the unmarried wind will comb its hair in heaven but for now in the Ohio of the weightlifter, that odd follower of stillness who built on roadkill tornado’s church