I want to be numb
I want to desire the
harsh touch of another
a slap, a kiss, a kick, a caress
I am not numb
I am full
of emotion, of feeling, of thought
I can't bear any more
It's not a choice
It's not 'I don't' but 'I can't'
Don't slap me
Don't kiss me
Don't kick me
Don't caress
You can't, I can't
If you put your arm
Around my shoulder
I will not let it stay
I don't want you to love me
I can't let you love me
I only have so much
and I've used it all up
on the things within
My outsides can't keep up
I don't want to feel your skin
I can't feel your skin
I can't control it anymore
There is too much inside
of me, I cannot do it
Just please
Let me be
Let me marinate in my sadness
Till all I feel is apathy
Just please
Don't touch me
You Can't touch me.