I want to die
I want to feel death's embrace
I want to wake up from my eternal torment of this disdained body

Release me from my agonizing suffering
Release me of my chained shattered limbs
Release me!

Forgiveness is a sin to me
What you call Love  avoids me
Friendship is a blurred vision to me
Connection is just an illusion to me

I feel nothing
I want nothing
Yet I am burdened by depths of my own demise
Counting days whereby I throw myself in the nine circles of hell screaming to God, "why have You forsaken me"
Spears of regret are shown in my blackened heart
Unseen scars of acid tears showed on my battered ugly face
Knives have collected on my back
And my back has become a blank red canvass of my failed art

I am nothing
I am a soul bounded by flesh
I am real that wishes to be imaginary
I am a wish that wasn't fulfilled

I scream for help
I scream for salvation
But salvation is death to me
My death is redemption to me

All is meaningless
All reason is meaningless
All I see is meaningless
I am meaningless

**** me
I want to die
So close
It feels cold.