i was wrong a few years back. we can love someone new. (we are able to love someone new.)

just like how we can transit from relationship to relationship over time when dating.

i'll remember that sudden cheek kiss and the kisses on my hand and your thigh grabs and the different ways you held my hand and finger nail rubs on my palm the thumb game we played when holding hands lying my head on your shoulder sometimes your head on mine your hugs your smiles our small little "quarrels"—cold war.

the way you speak sometimes— so childish yet cute.


but you never once told me you liked me. or that i was pretty.
the first time i ever felt butterflies in my stomach. genuinely. out of all the guys i met.

that want just so strong that you wanna be close to that someone. physically and emotionally. everything just felt right. at least at that moment.

almost.

it hurts the most when everything's an "almost", right?