i gathered every knife from the kitchen
stuck them into the soil in the backyard
i made a garden of blades in the lawn
so you would have something to look at
i kissed you on the mouth
on your cheek
on your neck
so you wouldn't forget
my breath on your skin
if you had stayed
i'd probably be a lot stronger now
i probably wouldn't cry myself to sleep
anymore
but
i fell in love with a man
who was emotionally absent
i then fell in love with a man
who was physically absent
but he loved me more than anything
even still
i am alone
i am alone