He spent the evening talking with a poor Australian accent to impress a strange girl who couldn't decide whether or not she had a boyfriend and on our way home he told me about how he liked to walk closer to the curb in case he had to valiantly shove someone out of the way of a car that had careened out of control and hopped the curb and he would martyr himself to save those around him if only because it would save him from his greatest fear of dying and not being known.