It hurts to say goodbye

I reflect on why it hurts so much,
Just to look you in the eyes.
I wonder what happened between us all,
To make us feel this way.
What happened to the people we used to be?
The people we valued so much?
But all the happiness that once was,
Turned into too much agonizing fear.

It didn’t hurt when I stayed up for hours thinking of you.
It didn’t hurt when we would laugh until we cried.
It didn’t hurt to trust you.
It didn’t hurt to consider you a friend.

But it did hurt to say goodbye.
It hurt to walk away.
It hurt to stand alone with nothing but regret.
It hurt to have memories flood back.
It hurt to be surrounded by nothing by darkness.
Because all light disappeared along with you.
It hurt to let go of everything I thought I had,
Maybe that choice is what hurts the most.

You didn’t hurt me,
Saying goodbye did.