I'm stuck between my desire and reality,
what is "best for me" verses "what I want",

Hopeless and worry wandering thoughts,
being good enough,
Over and over I fought,

fought with myself,
my identity lost in the sheer mix,
trying my best to uplift others,

Before you I was lost,
Without you I don't know if I would have made it this far,
I felt like the cause of it all,
The fights, the commotion, the screaming,
But you were steady and still,
waiting for me to lie on your shoulder
and hug me and tell me that it was going to be okay,

you were there to hear my cries,
to hear my sorrows, my worries,
For once it didn't feel like a burden.

and P.S maybe what "is best for me" may not be BEST FOR ME.