I stare at the sun until it partly blinds me, it shows me almost every way of letting go but every other way calls me.
"Let the light go, let it die, don't let it **** you."
I stare at the sun and it sends away a burning scent
"Replace this with the scent that dances along every song you listen to, you're making it harder on yourself. Let the scent go."
I light everything with that scent on fire, where's the burning scent?
It declines fire with a raining cloud that I recognize the scent of.
The scent of comfort taking over my hands and cheeks, in every page of The Catcher in the Rye, on the only rock that holds magic, on our house, on the colors of our dark cloud.
What did you do to Odd? Odd told you when we first met that we're ruiners, we warned you about the unknown, we'd ruin you.
How did this end up by him disappearing and self-ruining?
How am I left alone thinking of all the ways I ruined this and all the noises around reminding me of every mistake you did that lead me to taking every step I'm taking? I didn't plan for this to happen.
Do you know what it means to fight for something? for nothing?
I fought for nothing.
There you stand
accusing me for being one of them humans we despise.
your scent dances along every song I listen to
I relate to nothing
Nothing replaces my wondrous, wonderful and full of wonders 'human being'
Thank you for misunderstanding.