Am I self-sabotaging is that what this is? when my minds telling me he's good for me but my heart wants to resist. Am I truly in this Like actually wanting to see where it goes? He'll tell everyone he is Even willing to propose. But what if the feeling isn't mutual, Just a sick game, manipulated insides? All of the doubts, thoughts and confusion are drowning Yet there's nowhere to hide. I'm expected more of, And people awe at all we have Yet how much of it is real How much of it is fact. Is it a fact I love you? Or a fact I thought I did? Is it real we're meant to be? Or did we just take our largest bid? Is there something here? That's not make belief? Or is it all a matter of our imagination A story line we confuse for life? Or is this actual fact, feeling and love. That I am just unable to reciprocate. Despite believing I should. Is this the fairy-tale people hope for The fairy-tale I misunderstood.