What have I done, I made a promise, a promise to stop and never do it again,

What have I done, I thought that I could bring her into this and have her by my side for the journey but this is my war, I must fight it alone,

What have I done, I can’t tell her, no matter how much it hurts to hide it she can’t know, for her sake,

What have I done, I lost, I lost the battle that for so long I thought I was winning, but now it is over and I lie wounded upon the ground,

What have I done, I tried so hard to do the right thing by her but I fell into old habits, I fell into old traps that never truly disarmed,

What have I done, I have to fix this, I can’t let it start again, I have to stop, for her because I belong to her, I love her, I’m sorry, for everything,