i dont know how to explain this. this want to be with you. I feel so sad right now, tonight. should i not be happy? i wasted so many years. missed out on friendship. i wish with all of my being. that we could talk. though we have talked. theres so much you missed. things happend during the absence. things i wish you could have stopped. maybe if we were not moved apart. then i could be whole. complete. finished.