I am sitting in the closet taking shots from the 4 different alcohol bottles I have in front of me
And I can't breathe
I can't breathe on good days
And I can't breathe on bad days
And today is a really bad day.
Remember when I said I wouldn't know what to do if you both left me?
I have watched you both choose each other over me so many times.
So now I'm the one leaving.
I'm leaving because I want to breathe more easily,
I can't remember what it feels like for air to reach my lungs.
I can't remember what it's like to breathe deeply.
I gave everything up for you.
Now I have to choose me, I have to pick me, I have to be selfish. This is for me.