Leaving things unsaid
I must grab my head around your lies
You disturb my vision,
you cloud my heart.
I rise from restless sleep
An awful wreckage of a girl
A sudden memory of something lost
Give me happiness, take what it cost.
A non-satisfying plastic knife
Merely a piece of flesh
A diamond is without warmth
I see nothing, so noone sees me
Water burning, imagination takes over
Justifying stabs, hurtful tears.
Giving in to find a way out.
Too many whens & too many whys
I am alive but dead.
for a second tasting the tranquility,
Invisible blood I’ve bled.
A diagnosis, a fucked up wreckage of a girl.