I know I am my own disaster
Even as I fall, so grow the flames
I rise, but feel I’m sinking faster
The caster of my sorrow, I’ve proclaimed
That I, when into myself gazing
May never tame the sorrows come to play
I know that it’s myself I am betraying
Denying everything my heart proclaims

At times, I find the things I fight for
Become the things that slowly tear me down
It’s hard to know just what to die for
When so much I have faith in lets me down
My heart still knows what I cry out for
When all falls down, and every in-between
The truth of it all: I’m misleading myself
When through it all, I know what true love means

Yet, I tell myself the same things
And I sell myself the lies
I ignore I’ve been forsaken
By my painted on disguise
As I fall a little deeper
In regret and in despair
‘Til the day time brings me nearer
To the love my heart declares

And so, I’ve come to love disaster
Sometimes, it seems the only truth at all
But even so, I will not make it master
I fight myself through every bitter fall
I know true love is some day waiting
In my heart of hearts, I can’t deny
Someday, when I’ve finished breaking
I’ll know just what it is to feel alive

So with every lifeless motion
I hold on to peace of mind
Even when it so betrays me
And I feel so dead inside
Raging on against the darkness
I embrace with such disdain
Knowing once, my heart was happy
And it will be once again

So I tell myself the same things
I’ve ignored too many times
Knowing so much has been taken
But I will not lose the fight
Every day, my heart falls deeper
Someday, hearts will be declared
When I open up my eyes
I hope to see you standing there