I was doing what I do and didn’t do it right And I muttered something off-color It wasn’t anything I’d said in a while But it was so natural like I was its mother I suddenly remembered what it was It wasn’t anything that I need to explain But for me it was a sign of how nothing is really over Everything that ever touched me lives in my brain A habit now precious to me suddenly appeared It was so trivial on the day of its birth Yet this child reminded me of my friend And he lived in this moment though he left this earth Where are you my friend? We lived together We talked and broke bread You painted scenes with your minds feather Then they called me The loner made everything real It was your final act You killed the thief that lived to steal Your mind Your happiness Your worth Even your sadness It would not let you be There was no rest Joy was an explosion Sad was death You couldn’t live with us You tried to tell me the sickness Life was only a curse But a man must hide his weakness To die was the only way There was no time for our hearts to beat You touched my life but you will never know But as I see the stars, one day I hope our eyes will meet
This is about my friend who committed suicide back in 1993....