I will go home and take off my makeup, cleanser, exfoliant moisturizer.
I go to chiles to meet alyssa and talk to the nice waitresses she sits down and starts talking to me about her boyfriend, you know who you would look cute with? she asks me, I entertain her.
triple digits. four consonants. She says your name. I hooked up with him in april, but i think you guys would look good.
This is how it will go. I will go home and take off my makeup.
in april? i say. She scrolls through her phone I think about how I flipped your indian calendar from March. yeah, got pretty drunk. Played pool. It just sort of happens.
this Is how it will Go. cleanser.
I smile and tell her I know you. we probably would look good together and the rest that follows is irrelevant, I think I already knew, I wrote a poem about your bedspread months ago but I am not sure how i will go home tonight with her on my lips and whoever else, I am not sure how to trade one person for another, how that is done or if it is done if it is really accomplished
this is how it will go. exfoliant
so this must be where i am in the dirt, where everything you said finally makes sense, you didn't want to feel ashamed, guilty or sad and this is why, the other girls you held all the ones with fair hair and soft skin that you didn't have to feel ashamed of anyway because I was just the background noise a skin you were desperately trying to shed or forget you said you gave me everything but so did
i
everything that was mine to give dispersed into other women.
this is how it will go.
I will go home. I will not call.
(c) Brooke Otto 2017
something scattered. i have a lot of questions but I am not ready to ask any of them. Standby.