now I realize
the nurses were right
there was no saving what was
already dead

what you wrote off
you pretend not to see
a memory erased from a white board
but the words still show themselves
from a certain angle
in a certain light

why acknowledge
what makes us human?
assuming time is wasted
as if plans
are more important
than the present

and that was it alone
a fear that grew
into a monster
with an appetite for two
built of past and future failures
lured back into hiding
by today's expensive distraction