I saw your doppelganger today
Watched him behind my black hat
And stupid pink apron
He didn't notice my stares
And I remembered the night
We drank red wine
Or maybe it was whiskey
In the grass of my large backyard
You kissed me and said
"I've been wanting to do that for a very long time."

He looked so much like you
And I had to look at him for so long
That I thought
What if I just go ask
"Rush?"

Held me up against a fence
I drove you home
We were both drunk
You promised to lend me a book
And then you never talked to me again.

A year later
A Christmas party
I can't quite remember what I looked like that time around
But at one point we danced
Almost violently
Swaying back and forth
And I lament to my best friend
I've been with so many men
And its not even that I've ****** 'em all
I've been loved
And loved so much.

And I'm not even really sure why
Its this way for me
But it is.

I guess all I can do is be thankful.

But just like that
Our lasting longing
Disappeared
Among the bones
Or swept deep down into
The pit of my pool
Like Dave Matthews playing in the background
Or the guitar I metaphorically
Lit on fire in my mind
He looked just like you Rush.

Do you ever wonder what could have been?