it was love then. it is love now. being is always enough. when you resist, you suffer. stop pushing. place trust in dharma. the petals fall when they must fall. if you don’t push at all, something will still happen. change is the highest quality of your heart, and when you change, everything changes. there is no separation between us, only awareness. see god in everyone and you become god.
first call god, then send him away. aum namah shivaya. ram. jhao. भगवान. चले जाओ.