What went wrong? How was I so dumb?
To think I was good enough for you & we could fall in love

You could never be my soulmate
Because you curse your soul each time you rage

I used to have these crystal dreams of a future with you in them
Now I wish they never popped into my head

Blurring, stirring, twisting & turning these thoughts in my mind
You're words keep stealing this desperate happiness of mine

Chiseling your way to the core of my threshold
And when I break, I promise you'll have NO control

Thoughts of disgust & hopelessness fill my body
When you get dramatic with me in the hotel lobby

Filled with depression & anger, it's a vicious chain
You detox, then relapse & I don't want this pain

You're into trashing your brain with harsh drugs
So that you can tell me to go run off with the "plugs"

I'm so ******* sick & tired of your pain, anger & devastation
But here i foolishly am, still taking this humiliation  

You are becoming toxic before my very eyes
And I won't stand by as you tell me all these lies

You try to speak, but all I hear is the same vile song
You're throwing me to the wolves but i'll come back stronger

And I've been hiding Carmen for so long
But neither of us could care any longer

But when I'm back, I won't come back for you
I refuse to feel that same feeling of the miserable blue

I am not her, I will never be her
So I will not be treated as if I am her
And you will see when I'm gone,

I Was Never Her